CrazyCrazyCrazy....

 

been having crazy writers block. maybe cuz things have come in jumbles. making my head tangle up in a ball of ideas. crumpling down. after i found out the truth about someone. i realized, they meant more to me as a figure of my imagation. then knowning who there really are. does that make me a bad person. i hope not. i rather step back,  and believe blindly cuz inside i really dont want to believe that everything they ever told me was a lie. but i understand if they did. cuz i know how it feels to not like who u r. sometimes u just want to be someone else. and guess u thought i wont ever figure out. i wonder how long it would have lasted. doesnt it just pile on and on. and u choke on ur own lies. beging to breath. slowing you gasp for a breath of air. slowly. until you die. and everyone forgets who u r.  barely recognizing the truth from the lies... soo u become this shadow.

 

do you like losing people in your life? be real with yourself,

 

 cuz i didnt....

 

 

 

ps...captain planet is on at 530 am. does anyone remember that show? use to be the shitnitz back in the day...i always wanted to be a planet-tear thats the only postive thing i got for staying up late. well i did help a friend wake up to study for her test. i hope....either that or i pissed off her room mates...xP

 

update - powerpuff gurls are on at 6.30...woot~!!!! go buttercup...

 

tackle hug*****

 

         who wants to spend winter with urs truly?